Day 16

Still a bit in a funk today. Well, can't expect 30 years of depression to disappear after only two weeks using a neural audio app like this NZT app to wipe all that away. Brains may have plasticity but that doesn't mean neural pathways change instantly. As a matter of fact, I read the other day that when we create new habits our brains actually resist, as new pathways are formed because the old pathways often shrink and fall away and the brain resists this change. That's why change and new habits are so hard to create. There is actual science behind it!

Anyway, going to keep using the app because it has helped my mood & sleeping a bit more than anything else I've tried & I'd like to see what a few more weeks will do. Not expecting anything profound at this point but just glad one out of the hundreds of audios, videos & books I've absorbed and tried over the years has actually done something good for me.

Yesterday ended better than it seems in the post. I stayed up several hours after. Started watching Charmed with my daughter and she loves it. Looks like we have a new series to binge watch together which (witch?) makes me glad. Bonding with a 13-year-old can be a real challenge sometimes.

Also, going to start adding other enhancement audios & videos to my regimen of brain health and see how they work in concert with the app. We will see how it goes.

And also going to start reading a complicated text to see how well I absorb, recall and understand it. Will let you know...

I'll add more as the day goes by, if I feel the need...

PS - It's well into the end of the night now and I do feel to add something. I realized this weekend that perhaps it is time to make use of the Minister title I've had for nearly 18 years now, and use it to do good in this world for alternative and odd people like me. So, I have decided to offer my services to those who want a ceremony that is other than normal, since most traditionally religious Ministers would shy away from such services. I'm hoping I can fill a niche for those odd people in the world that are looking for something a little bit different.