Day 11

Not much different than yesterday. Was in a rather foul mood most of today but PMSing, so that might be why...

Anyway, went to bed last night around 1am & woke up around 8:30am, briefly waking at 6am when my daughter woke me to say she was awake. Got up & put on my NZT app while waking up for the day. Didn't feel like laying in bed while listening, so did morning chores & had breakfast while listening instead.

Watched last night's episode of Lucifer again this morning, while tweeting about it and then went on into work. Today, was not in a very good mood at work at all. Seemed like everything rubbed me the wrong way but I'm used to the job so I was able to disguise my feelings and get the job done, making sandwiches, stocking the store, cleaning and doing dishes.

But after today, I know my days here are numbered. I will try to get through the Summer here but I need to find something else more suited to me. And preferably something unrelated to food preparation and cleaning solvents. I am not sure but I think something is giving me an allergic reaction at work.

I noticed that my arms and chest were breaking out a bit in red allergic bumps. This is new so I never noticed it before. But alot of different cleaning solutions are used at Subway and after so many months working here, it is possible something isn't agreeing with me on a physical level. Perhaps, unconsciously this is why work is putting me in a bad mood lately too.

Anyway, don't have any other ideas for a job but I know I'd prefer finding something I could do from any laptop, whatever the work is. I'd like it to be something a bit creative, rather than routine, and perhaps a bit artistic as well. If only I could find my right niche to be in that was something others valued in me that they found themselves wanting that I could give. And if only this could be something sustainable and cumulative rather than this system of trading hours of my life for paltry pay that barely gets me by (and mostly doesn't).

Well, I'm home for the night... Going to veg out & relax the rest of the night, so posting this now. If I have anything else to add, I'll post it later... mabe even tomorrow...