Day 13

Can hardly believe it has been almost two weeks of daily use of this app. Honestly, I didn't expect to make it this far.

As to the app itself, well so far, it has some merits. It definitely has for the most part (menstruation aside) helped with my general overall mood & with sleeping better, even on less sleep. Even if those things are all I get out of this, they've been worth it.

Part of me didn't expect anything to happen at all. I'm rather good at doubting and my expectations in life are usually rather low (comes with lifelong depression), so again, even if this is all someone like me can get out of it, well, it's better than what I had before.

Of course, a little part of me wanted something like the name of the app suggests to happen. You all know what I'm talking about. Yeah, I wanted to experience greater brain power, clearer, more focused thinking, easier processing of information, easier recall & all that. Who wouldn't, right?

But, so far, can't really say much like that has happened. Lately, my repetitive life of sandwich art has me in a bit of a fog. I want more for myself but I have no clue how to achieve it. That's been the story of my life though... Always wanting what I don't have and with no clear idea, map or path to achieving it and so I go nowhere...

And even with this app, I am still on repeat. Perhaps some people have experienced profound transformations, with great mental and personal growth, but so far I can not say this has happened to me...

But, for now, I will keep using it, twice a day, on waking and before sleeping, because what I have with this app is still better than what I had without it. And maybe some of those other effects will "kick in" as I've been assured they will over time.